Pssssssttttt....

I am missing you...













for real.


xoxo,
D.

"It's sweet when someone knows every single detail about you. Not because you constantly remind them, but because they pay attention.."

Time to Gather Memories Again

Hate me today. I woke up mid-day uber hungry. While eating, I didn't know why I grabbed my camera. I'm not going to take pictures of me anyway but I was scanning through it looking into what was saved and photos that I was not able to upload. Then, BANG! For the love of the sweet speed of light!  My fingers must've been in a sort of trance while clicking it or in an auto-pilot mode....... Tsk! Lost everything. Nada. Love. Zero.

:-(
D.

It's a Give Away.... (Take two!)

The truth is glaring in front of you. Never assume because it will just bring doubts. Keep it real. Keep it simple. Keep love. And what you just don't know will come to light. 

xoxo, 
D.

Deus Ex Machina

"Deus ex Machina"  ( /ˈdeɪ.əs ɛks ˈmɑːkiːnə/ or /ˈdiː.əs ɛks ˈmækɨnə/ day-əs eks mah-kee-nə;[1]
-"god out of the machine"; plural: dei ex machina) is a plot device whereby a seemingly inextricable problem is suddenly and abruptly solved with the contrived and unexpected intervention of some new event, character, ability, or object.
-A person or event that provides a sudden and unexpected solution to a difficulty.




I should have not been so mad after all.
I realized that I met with an old  friend before going home. Some 20 minute conversation that is and it was about having a hard time to decide --- the trouble I'm having putting a boundary on what is wrong and what is right.
In a world of 6 billion people, where can you find a friend that you can trust, with no holds barred, no pretenses and  qualms at the same time? We may have had some inhibitions while talking to each other, yet it seems great friendship prevailed. His words keeps ringing in my head.


What's with the rush? True love waits. If he is into you, he will be into you no matter what. No matter how vast the space is between you guys and the time that is against both of you. 


I know it was sincere. From someone that I have wronged, so wrong that even if I do to myself what I did in the past, it won't suffice. Until now, sincerely, I would have to say I'm sorry.
Alright then, enough of the melodramatic stuff.  We peacefully said good byes.
At the end of the day, life is good no matter what. It may strike you in the head with a brick but you don't lose faith. Like today, when all seems confusing, I got a little tap from above sending me His 'machine' telling me that He is, above all else, in control.


In this life, not  everything is superficial after all.


Gracias,
D.

The Day I Lost My Poise... Arrghhh!

Ngayong araw na 'to hindi ako mag-iingles. Mas damang dama pag Tagalog at Pinoy na Pinoy.

Naknantipaklong! Napaaway ako kay ateng pinapalabahan ko sa kanto, dun sa laundry-han. Lumabas si Gabriela Silang! Isang linggo na nakakalipas ng nagpalaundry ko sa kanila, matagal ko ng kilala ung  nasa laundry-han nung si lumang ate pa ung andun. Ni hindi ako nawawalan, ni kahit maliit na bimpo o spaghetti strap na blouse naibabalik sakin. Pagkakamali ko mashado akong nagtiwala. Na dahil dati di ako nawawalan kay ateng mabait, ganon na rin ang pakitungo ko sa bagong taga-laba. Ilang araw ko ding hindi nahalughog ung bulto ng plastik na pinaglalagyan na ng malilinis na damit. Buong tiwala ako na andun lahat ng pinalabhan ko. Eto na Lunes, kahapon samakatuwid. Inayos ko ang mga damit sa cabinet at tinanggal ang natitira sa plastik.

Walanjo! Yung blazer na ginamit kong pangginaw nung araw na yun, nandun. Samantalang yung bagong bestida na kabibili ko lang galing online shopping, maganda, black and white, bago... WALA!

Pag tinamaan ka nga naman ng malas o. Suskoooo! Isa pang malupit e pabalang sumagot. Siya pa ang galit. Naknangarmpit! Naubos ang pisi ko samakatuwid at shempre, lumabas ang matalim kong dila. Siguro nagulat siya dahil tahimik akong lumapit, nakakapanting ng tenga ang mga walang habas at walang kwentang katwiran at depensa na wala sa lugar.

Kinuha ko ang numero ng amo nya at pangalan. Bukas kaming dalawa ang magtutuos. Wala akong pakialam kung lalaki at kung sino pa siya, bastos ang tauhan nya at isa pa nakawala sila ng damit ng customer.

Hindi ba't isang malumanay na paumanhin ay ayos na? Hindi ko naman sinabing palitan nila, e nawala na nga e. Bwiset!

P.S. Pero mas mahusay kung babayaran nila. Grrrr!

I Love Me. May You Love You Too....

‎"Haters are confused admirers who can't understand why everybody loves you." - Paolo Coelho




Keeping it Real,
D.

I Dreamt of Neverland

Oh how can I forget, this movie back in the 1st grade. Hook! As far as I remember, I sang one of the songs from the movie for a month on our wooden stairs when I was 7 and sang it where no one can see me though I know my Lola can hear me. Happy thoughts.

Without my family and friends around me, stranded in the four corners of my apartment due to the heavy rains caused by two typhoons within the week, guess I just feel alone today.  Hoping these rains stop and sunshine peeps in later.

When You're Alone - Hook 1991

Where is Peter Pan when I needed him the most?

Back to dreaming,
D.