Lie in Peace

It's been said that it's better to let someone think you're an idiot than to open your mouth and prove it. For the past week, I tried to be as silent as possible, as fluid and as nice as I can be. Maybe that's one way of me dealing with sadness or one way or another, opening my mind to the one glaring lie which is YOU.

In times like these, when everything seems to come out in the open like fireflies in the dark, when one lie leads into one truth to the other, "looking up" is bestest option I grab. The views just shut me up even the most silent aspect of my heart.





I will continue to be silent than to destroy. I'd rather keep singing than to say anything that would hurt. I will forge ahead and leave it all behind.






Keep safe and peace out.

Youtube, Music and Me

Everyday is a view of awe as I traverse the busy avenues of green I walked on too. Having music on your ears helps a lot into enjoying it more and savoring the beauty of people and looking up, gives me the bumps on how significant each and everyone is. It's defeating the undue sadness that sometimes hit the very me. And darn! Mr. A-Z has really influenced me a lot. Positivity. Grace. Gratitude. I am learning to practice it and i know it will eventually be a habit.

I was doing my usual youtube surf when I stumbled at my own video. What the frog! The friend who posted it didn't even inform me that she posted the wedding video where I sang. It was comedic! The I'm yours cover of some sort. I was laughing all the time while watching it. Sometimes it's kind of weird watching yourself doing the stuffs that only certified artists and musicians do. I'd be a little selfish this time and I wouldn't post it here. I think I have to disappoint you a bit and satisfy the narcissus in me.

Since I was a kid, I am exposed into music. My dad can sing and play the guitar and my mom is a part of a chorale group back in her college years. I sang into various school activities and sometimes do intermission numbers for math contests and on awarding ceremonies. Teachers then were really encouraging students to step up and follow their dreams not to mention we were so gullible too believing everything even if you sound horrible. I was a part of a chorus group that was so promising; unfortunately, we were dissolved after winning a contest held at the CCP. (I was just watching various chorale groups before and performing at the Main Theatre of the CCP is a dream come true, an experience that I’ll cherish for the rest of my life.



I stopped singing. I mean singing with a group or singing in front of people I do not know. I would sing while taking a bath. I would sing inside my room. I would sing while walking, though I can only hear myself. I would sing in my station while I take pleasure in my everyday tasks at work. But no, not in front of a big crowd.

The year was 2009, where I unleashed the thick face and sang again in front of hundreds during the Christmas Party. The feeling was so awkward but I am there already. It’s either to do it or not to. I want to try it again. And looking back last year, it never failed to put a smile on my face. And Grace, my manager, my boss, I owe you big time on the untiring encouragement and support. No kidding. I can see you years from now as the best stage mom for Sophie and Ngab. :)



And then again, seeing my face in youtube, brings back the memories of wonderful performances. Flashbacks. Seeing me holding my mom's roller brush and performing in front of a mirror at three years old and the time when I sang Whitney Houston's 'The Greatest Love of All' before my classmates back in 3rd Grade which gave me the 1st honor medal. (Thanks Ms. Ortega!), and to numerous exhibitions I did-- both terrible and applauded. Everything is for all the people who watched especially for mom and dad and to the Supreme Being who bestowed this miraculous talent.

This gift that I have, I am deeply humbled. I am Loved and so are you. You are well provided for. Be a gift for you and for others. It’s not every day that you get to thank the people who ridiculed and criticized you in the past and who is still doing so until now. If not for them, have you had that courage to improve and learn more? So as to the people who appreciated the person that was you and what you have become. Gracias.

I hope this voice will find its home again.



Marvelous credits to my dad for letting me learn the guitar back in 6th grade.

La la la la life is wonderful,
dani

Of Writing and Joga

Sometimes blowing your chance can be very devastating; sometimes it serves as a blessing in disguise.

I am thankful today to a friend who always encouraged me to write-- my everyday musings, my unusual ranting, the bestest passion I get and I give, the perennial whining and complaints that I do and just everything that flows and triggers the compelling force inside.

In this state, I didn't have the energy to move. It's as if wanting someone to help me blink and breathe. I gazed at my trembling fingers and guarded it as it stroke every letter in the keyboard. I looked at the ceiling and thought that it may have been my fault after all. I've violated you for how many times. Let you pass by when everything else was okay and when nothing more or less really matters but you and me.

You were with me in my happiest days and the most lugubrious too. You’ve drawn the smile and the funky faces I had. We’ve shared the mundane and the grand views. You’ve contradicted statements and agreed on opinions at the same time. There were things that I greatly abhor that you liked and there were things that you dreaded but I do. You took my silence indifferently and your being outspoken, I detest. And still, amidst everything, here we are--together in same grounds. I knew I didn't blow the chance.

I stopped typing just for a few minutes. I noticed the trembling fingers stopped too. Then blank. Then words. I hated whodunits however I had the urge of using it for now.

And to you who's reading this:

You are my volition - my choice to continue.

You are that friend and you moved me to write. You are my lethargy at times and always my energy to endure.


I dropped the typing.
I hummed.
Joga.



you are you,
dani

The World is Running for Water and Manila for the Earth

If you are thinking on how to put some variety on your stereotype summer escapade besides the exciting plan of going out of town and plunging to the breath-taking beauty of the beach, I advise you to do something apart from satisfying your quench for adventure and fun. I suggest in giving back a little of ourselves to the nature that has nourished and provided us everything we need.



EARTH RUN WORLD APRIL 18, 2010

Recent events had been so concerning. With the summer season here at its peak, doubling the heat with the wrath of El Nino, news here and there of dying animals---on land and in water, dampening of the poultry business, and dams on its critical level state, it dawned into me that water conservation is the primary key---- as always.

And it is in my utmost desire to participate in it.

You may say that the world has tons of water, but did you know that only 5% is available for use? All of us need it; even a plastic water bottle itself needs approximately 21 gallons of water to be able to produce it. Local agencies may have been giving out tips as frequent as possible and government advisories day in and day out being flashed on our TV screens, but a lot is still ignoring it. We can live up to a month without food but without water, we'll be dehydrated and dying in just within a week.

The ultimate crux: It is our fortune. Our most valued resource.



Will you run or wait till it runs out?



EARTH RUN APRIL 18, 2010 MANILA


It’s still more than a month from now. DECIDE.


Where there is water there is life,
dani

Awesome People Updates

Pronunciation: \ˈȯ-səm\
Function: adjective
Date: 1598

1 : expressive of awe
2 a : inspiring awe b : terrific, extraordinary
— awe•some•ly adverb
— awe•some•ness noun

To awesomely introduce to you the awesomeness of the people in my life, I thought of bringing them in and including them in my usual posting.

I've got a few people in mind and this is only one of those ways to give a little tribute to what they've contributed in my life and to others that they may have influenced in ways they do not know.

I knew that it might be a mundane weekend for me since I haven’t received any updates nor affirmation on the date me and Cristine set up for the group to go to MOA to witness the Pyromusical Competition between different countries. Darn! Waiting for replies sometimes takes a lifetime. Oh well, I knew I will not make it again at the competition but it seemed it turned out like a blessing in disguise since I received an invite to go to The 9th Philippine Food Expo at the Megatrade Hall.

He is my kind of chef. My best friend and a confidante when it comes to good food, as in GOOD, HEALTHY food. I came in a little late. It wasn't easy to find their booth. And when I arrived, he already started doing his demo. Goodness Gracious! I didn't realize that it was sort of really a demonstration with seats in front, more of like watching Wok with Yan on TV when I was a kid. And with the help of Sei, my bestfriend too, they were able to pull it off.








We are what we eat and just listening to what he's saying makes me wonder how I so abuse myself in indulging to unhealthy foods. Too much salt, too much sweets and the worst, too much junk. I was a fan of sodas and potato chips and of foods that has no nutritional value at all. My initial objective of going there just to see my friends became an eye opener on how bad my awareness was into eating. Take for example Moringa leaves (malunggay) which has SEVEN TIMES vitamin C that the usual orange drink has, FOUR TIMES calcium than the usual milk and a lot of other nutrients. It's like having a pharmacy inside your home and planting it is like having a drugstore at your own backyard. There may be plenty of superfoods out there that I need to discover.

Here are some samples of his recipes:






Bottomline: I will watch what I eat.

It is a part of my advocacy to committing random kindness and being love-- not only for other people but for me and family as well.

Though it took us just hours to be together-- We ended the day strolling at the mall with healthy watermelon pops.INDULGE!!!




My Gratitude to the ever Fabulous CHEF that I know. Continue promoting the health-conscious buff you have within you. Kudos!

You Are Awesome!




Disclaimer: You are awesome. Unique in different ways. Utilize it to inspire and love the people around you. He isn't the first and defintely not the last. There's more to come. Be love.